Eccentricity

It has been quite a while since I wrote. I was battling depression and having suicidal thoughts again. I thought I was over that after I went for a good confession last June. It is very exasperating to feel this way. Nobody knew as I was still having these depressive thoughts. When I say my prayers, I always ask my late Mother to help take away these negative thoughts. My siblings were not talking to me for some time after my Mother passed away in 2017. That made things worse for me. I was only hanging on because of my nephews and nieces who were very compassionate towards me from day one.I kept in touch with them even when I was having bad days. A couple of weeks ago my Aunt passed away suddenly. I was feeling kind of funny as she was someone who went ou of her way to keep me sane. I did not cry but I could not sleep at night. By God's grace, I started sleeping well after 10 days. It brought a positive change in me. I began to be interested in everything that was happening like before. I do not know why or how this wonderful change came about. Right now, I am feeling exuberant and raring to go out in public again instead of hibernating in bed 2 weeks back.If not for the pandemic, I would have been able to travel interstate to see my good friends and relatives. Praise and thanks be to God on high for answering my prayers. Life is great!