Biblio-Artis

Why do I love books? They're expensive but I keep buying even if I won't be able to read them. Yes, I am guilty of being a hoarder. I just like to have them, stare at them most of the time, but don't really find time to read them all.

My love for books started when I was 10 years old. I actually started reading comics at the age of 5. I remember there were plenty of Pinoy comics in our house because my cousin loved to read them. Oftentimes she would ask me to rent at a nearby store and excitedly, I would obey because there was a comics novel that I follow during that time. I also remember that I learned my first English sentence in comics (What about me?). That was how I became addicted to reading. And then my Papa who was a lawyer had a small personal library and I loved staring at those bookshelves that he maintained. In that same area, he also had an office table with a nameplate made of stone. During playtime, I would sit there and pretend being a boss with the bookshelves at my back. I would replace his nameplate with a carton, my own name written on it as 'General Manager'. That would cause the people in our household to burst into laughter. Anyway, when Papa wasn't around, my eyes would scan through the titles of those leatherbound books in the shelves. Whew! My young mind couldn't really absorb those highfalutin words but I loved picking a book, holding and opening their pages. Even if I could not yet understand their contents, my love for books had already began in my subconscious. One day, as I was taking one book from my Papa's shelf, he caught me. I was terrified when I realized that he was staring at me as I knew that he didn't want anyone touching his things. But surprisingly, he didn't get mad at me. He asked me if I like one. I immediately said 'yes'. He didn't have a children's book so he took out a pocket-sized book authored by Lyndon B. Johnson. I will never forget this scene between the two of us and how he told me that it was not a book for me but that he wanted me to read it and tell him what I learned when I finish it. I was 10 years old at the time. It was Papa and I could not disappoint him. He was the only person I wanted to impress that time. So I read it and even if there were so many things that were hard to understand and uninteresting in the book, I just told him about it when I was done. I will never forget the smile that curved his lips when he heard all that I had to say about the book. He said I can keep the book and take care of it. And I did! It was my first treasure, but most importantly, it caused my hunger for more knowledge that I could gain through reading. So I began to collect my own books. And I discovered that my hunger couldn't really be filled. There are still a lot of books out there that I haven't bought. And I just couldn't stop the urge of buying them to surround my space even if I could no longer keep up. I could not read all of them because I have other things to do. But why can't I stop wanting to have them? Maybe I can trace the answer back to my childhood. Books were so comforting to me then. In the house where I grew up, my Papa's personal space, his bookshelves were the only things I found solace. When every part of me was breaking, I would sneak in there, open some books and read paragraphs that were difficult to comprehend but somehow gives me relief. And now in my adult years, I still find books comforting. I feel safe when I am surrounded by them. People can leave and abandon me but books wouldn't. Whenever my heart gets broken, I can always go back to them because they are the ones waiting for me to pick them up to escape this world of pain and help me heal. And I am sure that they would always be here for me even when times get tough.

Written by:
Red Mary
092524

From the time I bought my phone, I have used a famous rock star as a wallpaper. Today I have changed it and used my own picture instead. This is my way of reminding myself that I am taking on self-love and that no matter what, I will always have to prioritize myself before I can take care of others. The path to healing is steep but in God's time, I will be there.

Always be gentle with yourself. Not because you were in love meant that you were happy or at peace. Just keep going, you got this!🙏❤

Written by:
Red Mary
091224

When the heart is broken, the mind becomes the greatest enemy. The flood of memories, the thoughts of the times you shared with the significant person will cause you more pain. You don't have to force yourself to be numb. Allow yourself to feel the emotions. Take it one day at a time. It is hard but I tell you, it does get better. You may not notice it but one day, you'd be surprised to know that things are much lighter and you are learning to smile again. Love yourself more in these days. Time is healing. Eventually, there will be someone in this world that will come into your life who will love you the way you deserve and who will make you happy because remember, you have so much love in your heart and you are worthy.

Keep smiling, babe. You can do this!❤

Written by:
Red Mary
091124

First love.

I still think of you and sometimes I wish that I have a time machine so that I could go back to that magical moment when I first laid my eyes on you and correct the mistakes that blocked the path of us ending up with each other. It was never easy losing you because you are the only person who loved me like I was the only girl you have in the world. You cherished me like no one ever did. And when things got rough, you never gave up on me. You always find me when I have turned my back too many times, always the shoulder I could cry on. You are still with me despite my craziness and every time I look into your eyes, my heart cries. I think of what could have been. Maybe we're the happiest couple in the world. And maybe I am not out here chasing love, always wondering if I am worth someone's heart because with you I am always enough.

I hope that you'll always know I have not stopped loving you. And I am still here...nothing's changed, always imperfect. There is no greater love than the love of the first man who made my heart beat and that's YOU.

Sincerely,
Red Mary

When I fell in love with you, I never thought that I'd leave you because in my heart, you were the only person that I loved this much. It was beautiful when we started but as days passed, you have made me feel so unworthy. I didn't want my feelings for you to end because I knew that this kind of love won't come again. But I am tired of waiting that things can change. I know that I deserve better than this. My heart didn't stop beating for you and the truth is, I love you more than the first time I fell for you but all I'm asking is for you to be honest with me. Please, free me from these agonizing thoughts that break my heart and I promise you...once you let me know of my place in your life, my feelings will stop getting hurt.

Written by:
Red Mary

I once had a dream:
To belong in the stars
Sparkling brightly in the night sky;
The moon used to follow me around
And I began to fall in love;
We talked endlessly
Because it was the only friend I got
In my place of pain, of loneliness,
And when it doesn't show up at night,
I try to endure my fear of the dark
And just wait for the sunrise
To doodle my dreams on the stone;
Each scene I draw were my heart's longings
As I patiently wait for the moon to come back;
I painted my dreams with a childlike grin,
A hope in my pocket, a wish fulfilled,
But they all thought I created a mess;
All my doodles were dirt, an eyesore.
So they took a pail of water to wash away those dirt,
They killed my childish hope and tore my heart in pieces;
So once again I stood by my window each night to wait for the moon's promise
That no matter what happens,
It will show up in all its phases;
And in it's fullness, I uttered my pledge:
They took away my innocence
But they failed to wash away my dreams;
Still I will navigate the darkness
To reach the sky
And become one of those stars
Burning brightly at night.

Writen by:
Red Mary

I felt so sad today when I woke up that something's changed about me. I used to be so ecstatic everytime I open my eyes and the first thing I do is check my phone if you have a message. Today was different. I am no longer excited to know if you have a message. I no longer care if you are online. I no longer daydream about you. I no longer miss you as a person but...I miss the feelings that you gave me. I miss the bliss, the euphoria, the elation of simply knowing that I was falling in love because...I was so in love with love. It's quite sad realizing that loving a person and loving the way I felt were two different things. I crave for the feeling and not the person. And if today was sad, it was simply because I love being in love and now that the feeling is gone, I am sad...yes, absolutely sad.

©RedMary

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