Bellow Wing

Bellingham! I’ve got a show coming up with .and.the.sleeping.giants Saturday, Sept 2nd at
Do you want us to livestream it??
🖤🎶🖤

Inadvertently dressed like a witchy, cottage core influencer before heading up the mountain today.

More importantly, my son and his wife are adorable 🖤

Also, for me, being a mom comes with a whole pile of emotions. It brings things out of me I never knew could exist, let alone within me. It’s weird and amazing and complex and simple. It’s dichotomy and harmony. It’s gratitude every day for far more than there are words.

Today is an anniversary. I've gone a while without drinking alcohol. 16 years. This has changed my life. The first several years were profoundly different and then it just became life. I used to post a picture of myself passed out on the street as a marker, a reminder of how bad it was. My mom hated it. This morning I thought about that and how this reminder seemed like such an important thing. To never forget how bad it got. To not forget where I came from. Otherwise, I might go back to it. And I realized that that thinking is bu****it.

It's only real if you're afraid. Its only real if you believe that you're a threat to yourself instead of an ally. Its only real if you don't trust in this moment.

There is a new blog post about this on my website.

I’m gonna be a bit vulnerable here for a moment. And yes, I have a skull in my hand in this pic. 🖤 I’ll be playing some brand new songs at my show on the 9th.
These songs have come from a totally different place than my other songs.
They’ve been birthed through me, for me.
They’ve required patience, care and attention that I could only give to my art once I was able to give that same attention to myself.
These songs make me cry. Every time I play them.
They are entities.
They are whispers that require silence to be heard.
They are healing as they cry their way past my ego.
I think they’re silly, plain, repetitive and that I should change them to make them more “palatable” for others.
But they are not mine to change.
They are mine to hear. Exactly as they are.
They are the songs that I need to hear.
Unto my scars.
And I want to share them with you.
Click on the youtube livestream link in my bio and set a reminder for the show.
See you there my dears
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Today is my actual birthday but my birthday show is next Friday! 🎉
Super grateful its next week cos I’ve been stricken down with the Cobi this week. We’ll see how well I can sing on the 9th!!

For those who cant attend in person, we’ll be livestreaming via youtube 🖤🎥

SHOW ANNOUNCEMENT!
Karen Kunkel and I will combining our powers and putting on a performance of music and poetry woven through and with love and magic. ✨🔮

This Friday July 15th from 8-10pm at The Honeymoon 🎶

I will be performing some of my new material for the first time ever in public. I‘ll be playing some songs with Karen, she‘ll be singing some songs with me and others and sharing poetry.

I love shows like this because I never know exactly what will happen. But I DO know that it will be honest, raw, moving, thought provoking, lovely and supportive.

Karen will be moving to New Orleans and I will be traveling to Spain for a bit and continuing work on my next album. Come join us in the merriment!

March 4th is Bandcamp Friday!! That means Bandcamp doesn‘t take a cut from any sales from midnight to midnight.

Cool..so..maybe you dont want to download an album cos you prefer to listen on your favorite streaming service. Great! I‘d like to share with you how much independent artists get paid per stream on Spotify. Swipe thru for screen shots of my hefty payouts!

Here’s a friendly reminder to consider throwing some $$ at the artists you stream most often. And if you dont have the $$, its just as lovely to send some written/verbal appreciation and gratitude for all the hard work they put into making that music you love so much. 🖤🎶🖤

The most productive use of my time and energy is to rest and see what needs attention next.

✨New Blog Post up! https://www.bellowwing.com/bellow-wing-blog✨ Its about how the apocalypse changed the Rest of my life.

"Its been seven years since I decided I wanted to be able to fully devote myself full-time to my art and to myself. I tried in so many ways to get here. All of them involved hustle. They involved pushing through and making s**t happen. Trying to figure out my next move. Years falling short. Hitting one ginormous road block after another. Fu***ng up my health and learning how to get it back. Years of financial struggle and paying off thousands of dollars in debt.

"The one thing that has made the difference for my life between now and everything I tried over the last seven years. The difference between hustle and ease: letting go.

"So simple but not always that easy (although honestly, sometimes it truly is that easy). I’ve had to unlearn a lot of s**t. I’ve had to completely dismantle and redefine what I believe that makes me a valuable person worthy of love (hint: being alive is enough). I’ve had to let go of my future and what I always thought it would be."