unearthingwithbeebs

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The best days in life are not always the ones with grand excitement or thrilling triumph. They are often the ones full of sweet things and sweet moments. Slow mornings and unrushed love. Little pleasures and nowhere to hurry to…
The best days are often the ones with beautiful moments, one after the next, filling the day softly, entirely.

Author: Nikki Banas
Book: Soul Waves, pg.33

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The sun is warm, the air is soft, there’s comfort in grey skies. Rain patters on so steadily days slip before our eyes. Now here we are - untouched- while autumn steals all that we know. Yet unlike flowers, through the seasons, we may live to grow.

- Autumn, Ellis Nightingale

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I hope this post gives you insight on moving through self-rejection.

From my experience, love is on a spectrum.

The more you lose, hurt and touch into the depths of your sorrows. You find new heights in love.

Your capacity to love yourself and others in numerous situations starts to deepen.

Now, you don’t forget or let in repeated cycles but you can observe and show grace in ways that weren’t previously possible.

It’s weird knowing but oddly satisfying to understand you can’t have one without the other.

Anything worth loving comes with some risk.

If you see me out in public with a book in my face this Fall, it’ll be one of these!

I love Alice Hoffman and her Practical Magic Series. It looks at life from both darkness and light. Reminding me that magic can be found in both. I can live with and love myself through both.

Let the witchy season begin 🐦‍⬛💀🎃

My version of “do not pass go, do not collect $200”

As the cool weather starts to sit in, I feel myself turning inward but at the same time expanding into something I’ve never embodied before. I start to ask myself:

🍂 What is coming towards me next?
🍂 What have I shed or what’s being shed right now?
🍂 Am I ready to step into this new layer?
🍂 Can I feel excitement instead of fear?

In these moments, I’m reminded to hold myself with love and compassion. Accept what has come and went. Accept what is to come even if I can’t quite see it. Love the void in all of its unlimited power.

I hope this helps you find peace of mind.

I go through cycles of healing my pain and experiencing the pleasures of life.

Right now, I’m integrating the healing by living life my way.

Chaos leads to Peace.

My peace is my heaven.

Wear the f**king dress.

It shouldn’t take from you if you stand out. Let it add to you. Let yourself sparkle in the darkest places

Chaos is needed in a relationship for creation.

Too much chaos can leave us in a one-sided relationship.

Where either one of us takes too much and/or gives very little back.

It feels like we’re circling the drain.

Never getting the chance to recollect ourselves.

We need to be able to stand our ground.

We need to choose… stay or go?

Hey babe, come out and play. I want to see all of you radiate.

No one will take you seriously until you show them that something or someone can change.

You can’t just preach the system you want to implement it into your life.

You need to see it.
You need to believe it.
You need to start taking action.
You need to become it.

That’s where the real power lies.

Lead by example not for others but for yourself.

Give yourself everything you once dreamed of.

When the going gets tough in relationships.

The problems start to pile up.

Our voices start to feel like sandpaper to the ears.

We can’t escape conflict.

When you’re in a place asking what’s next?

Especially when you can’t see the next step in front of you.

Your strength lies in trusting that the next step will appear right on time. Trust that everything will work out no matter what happens next there’s a bigger picture.

That’s next step is just a small action/intention to move you closer.
Be patient and gentle with yourself.

Remember, the small steps are important but sometime’s you have to venture off the controlled course to get to the prize. Nothing is linear.

And, wherever you go love follows.

Some memories are worth writing down.

I love food. I love cooking.

I love creating beautiful and tasty things to share with the people that I love.

We’re not broken.

We just need to be unearthed, cleansed and polished.

I learned that when I accepted all of myself without shame and guilt. I started to love me.

I started to see all my rough edges as boundaries.

All the smooth edges as invitation to love deeper.

I deserve more than what you gave.

It’s one thing to be pretty.
But being pretty, smart and compassionate…
Now that’s a triple threat.

You know your worth.
You have peace.
You don’t let others take what doesn’t belong to them.

You are not just some shining object. You are your life’s work.
You are a masterpiece.

We all have a hamster wheel, whether we want to admit it or not.

Something that keeps gives us comfort.

Something that feels “safe” but is truly destructive.

Something we know needs to end but we struggle to sever the attachment.

No one said it will be easy, but f**k… It’s always worth it in the end.

I walked away not because I didn’t want to see where this goes.
I walked away because I owned it to myself to find something more.

Potential isn’t enough.
Hoping isn’t enough.
If you don’t see change after you speak up then leave.
Even if you still care, leave.
Protect your peace.
There will be more opportunities for you, if you leave what refuses to see your worth.

✨ This was one of my biggest lessons.

I was looking for love and acceptance from everything outside of me.

It felt like something I had lost.

I never knew when/if I would get it back.

I had to face myself for it to come out of hiding.

Agenda for this week:

🌈 Take baby steps outside of my comfort zone.

🌈 Embrace the hustle mentality and stagnancy, when necessary.

🌈 Remain open to redirection.

This list may look simply to complete but it requires a lot of self-discipline.

My goal with this list to keep my head, body and surroundings connected. Try my best to not disassociate.

What would it be like if we choose to never disassociate? I’m curious.

Hopefully by the end of this week I’ll have my answer.

What’s that cliché saying:

Dare to be Different ✨

Yeah, do that!

“I always want to come from a place of hope as much as possible.” - Danielle Coke

This one hits where it hurts.
In places I didn’t even know existed.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

No longer shaming myself for loving so deeply.
Teaching myself to turn that love inward.

This one hits where it hurts.
In places I didn’t even know existed.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

No longer shaming myself for loving so deeply.
Teaching myself to turn that love inward.

More recently I’ve noticed I see my life from the eyes of a student.

Always looking for ways to improve myself.
Always looking for ways to “upgrade”.
Always seeing myself as someone that’s not ready to take the driver’s seat.

Imposter syndrome at its finest.
But lately I feel that my time as a student is over.
I‘m becoming a teacher.
Teaching myself to lead from a place of love not lack.
Teaching myself to lead with softness not rigidness.
Uncomfortably leaning into a role, I’m genuinely terrified of but excited to experience.

My life may look different and out of sync to others but when you do things right, people won’t be sure you’ve done anything at all.

Remember, wherever you go love follows ✨

Some days you just need an escape from reality.

No, you can’t always run but just a break so you can recalibrate.

What allows you to see life from fresh eyes?

How do you recalibrate?

P.S- Love this cute little coffee shop in Downtown Chattanooga. Best Matcha Donut EVERRR

It reminds me of when romance and friendships end.
It’s bittersweet.
Some relationships come into your life and show you what you don’t want to see, your own reflection.

Those are the situations remind of this quote:
“It’s okay to be a glow stick. Sometimes we have to break before we shine”

I wish I had something clever to say today. Sometimes the cleverest thing you can do is stay silent.

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Thoughts…

Deep, intrusive and triggering thoughts.

What the f**k is love?
Conditioned or Unconditioned?

It’s such a buzz word. What do you believe to be true for you?

Whatever you decide would you be willing to accept the same in return?