Waking Puma Energetics

You can’t compete with me because I want you to win too 🫶🏼

Presence exercise.
Look around you and find five things that you would describe as beautiful.
Say it all aloud.
Find five things that are useful.
Five things that are loved.
Five things that are enjoyable.
Breathe.
Feel your body.
Welcome back. 🌻

Beauty is not caused. It is.
~Emily Dickinson

I want there to be peace inside me like a spring glade full of wildflowers and buzzing bees. Butterflies flitting about from bloom to bloom, fresh dewdrops glistening on newly sprouted leaves. Vibrant greens, soft yellows and tender purples. Fawns jumping about merrily on wobbly legs. The sun casting it’s warm golden rays on all. And me at the edge lying on a bed of moss, impossibly soft, at the base of a great old oak tree. Disturbing none because I’m in harmony. That is how I want to walk through my days, wandering lovingly with a gentle smile on my lips, hugging the world through my adoring gaze. Felling peace and unity. 💚🍃

Spring grid! 🌸This one feels very special to me. The colors are bright and vibrant and it emanates positive flowing energy uplifting the entire space bringing lightheartedness and warmth.
The crystals I used are:
Charoite
Celestite
Aquamarine
Rose quartz
Kyanite
Opal
Pearl
Kunzite
Tourmaline
Selenite
Purpurite
Herkimer diamonds
Blue topaz
Sugilite
💜

Workin on it 😌

Are you denying yourself the basic necessities of life because you’re too much in your head to get up and go get a glass of water?
Go get a glass of water you gorgeous thang. 😏😘

Meditations on black kyanite
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I sat with the crystal on my solar plexus and meditated, focusing on opening and allowing the energy of the crystal to influence my field and teach me whatever I was ready for. Then I meditated myself into sleep and when I awoke I kept a quiet mind and moved around to allow the insights to surface.

I’ve had some very profound revelations today as a result of this exercise. I realized that I’ve been blocking my connection out of fear of being seen, of shining bright. I’ve got big energy and when I shine it’s blinding, and that can bother some people. I’ve had the smile slapped off my face more than once so I learned early on that it isn’t safe to shine. I learned to hide the best parts of myself. I’ve been holding back because of childhood fears.

I’ve been playing small and cutting myself off from accessing my full power because of a belief in my own unworthiness. I’ve taken off a lot of layers in order to get to this deep core belief. Those who didn’t feel worthy taught me this. It’s an old, old program that I was gifted in the womb. I had been unwilling to admit this to myself because I was caught in the blame-shame cycle. This has been a source of discomfort for a while but I hadn’t been able to put my finger on it. I would rail against my beliefs and then blame my parents and my environment for the lower vibrational programming I was carrying. But then I would feel ashamed for blaming them, in essence turning the negative projection back on myself. But then I would get angry because shame feels so bad so I’d revert back to blame. Blame and anger feel better than shame so the cycle becomes addictive. Until you see it.

Truth is, no one is to blame. We are vibrational beings and we were all born into environments filled with pre-established frequency patterns. We just absorb them naturally and they help shape who we are and how we interpret the world. Many believe we choose who our parents are going to be before incarnating, and I am of that mind. Vibration is an interesting thing because you can’t see up- you can only see where you are and down. And our parents were born into unique vibrational environments too. Environments they had no control over and couldn’t see because of where they were. You can’t see the forest for the trees, as they say. They weren’t aware of higher truths so there was no way they could embody them and gift them to me. They are all just people doing the best they knew at the time. So blame and anger are pointless. And so are shame and guilt. Useful, of value, arguably some of our greatest teachers, but not preferred states of being. I prefer unconditional love and acceptance. This perspective helps me to let go and not take it so personally, mine or anyone else’s. It all just Is. We all just Are.

Lack, limitation, belief in finite resources of any kind, including time, are just vibrations. It is a truth you can choose to buy into and then the universe will mirror those beliefs back to you in the form of life experience, but ultimately they are just a choice. Most of us just don’t know we’re choosing it. Until we do.

Lackfulness is a type of victim mentality where you don’t recognize and own your own power, your own light, and you think someone outside of you is controlling your flow of resources, which is never true. It breeds a feeling of not deserving to feel good, feeling like there’s a price to pay for being happy, feeling like the only way to make it through life is through stress and strain and struggle and hard work, through earning, through sacrifice and transactions of time and effort in exchange for money. But this is not how the universe works. The universe only responds to who we say we are, and we are the only ones defining that. If we believe life is hard the universe says ‘here you go, it’s hard’, and life reflects that belief. We often don’t understand that we can just as easily decide it’s easy and the universe will reflect that back to us. When you look in a mirror and you don’t like what you see you don’t go over and rearrange the reflection- you change the image being cast. If the image is frowning and you want to see it smile you have to smile. If you smile at the universe it smiles back! We’re not creating the world around us by force and manipulation. We’re choosing better and better for ourselves through the process of refinement and the physical world is shifting around us to reflect our new preferences and standards.

These were the insights that arose as I held this crystal. I went out to do some yardwork thinking that the physical activity would help me make space to receive communication and insights from my higher mind. An inflexible body houses an inflexible mind, and I had been being lazy as of late. I worked for a while and it felt good. After a bit I stopped, stood still and listened. I dropped my walls completely, expanded my awareness and felt out into the space around me. I felt my connection to everything, the earth, the trees, the sky, the creek, the birds overhead, the wind. The illusion of separation fell away completely and I merged with it all until I didn’t know where one ended and the other began. It was a dizzyingly blissful feeling and I felt my heart blossom. I sat there with my face upturned to the sun and just glowed with my own brilliance. And damn did it feel good! Peaceful loving liberation!
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Further insights have been filtering in over the next day and a half since I first began this little journey with the stone. Far too much to write here. Suffice it to say that I have had a profoundly transformative experience and I’m eager -yet patient- to experience more of my light. I wonder which stone will call to me next! 😊