Eldest of Eleven

Lampara
“Magpapasalamat sa mga panahong
Ang hawak mong lampara
Ang naging ilaw at rason ng pag kalma…”

-Eldest of Eleven

Paglalakbay

Madalas sinasabi, hiling lang palagi kang masaya
Kahit hindi sa piling kong dalangin ka hanggang sa panaginip pa
Tama bang panatilihin mga araw patuloy na sa iyo, sana’y makapiling ka?
Aasa ba? Kung darating ang panahon na kahit dulo ng iyong daliri masabing napasaakin ka
Ganito man ang hinatnan ng damdamin na noon pa man ay ikaw na
Hindi manghihinayang na kailanman pinaglaanan ay ikaw na
Kahit sa simula pa lang alam na alam ko nang sa kanya ka na
Magpapatuloy parin sa paglalakbay kasama ang paghangang sayo’y noon pa ma’y tapat kahit lihim pa
Maghihintay na lang kung ang mundo mo’y sa kalawakan ko’y dadaan ba
Maglalakbay parin kahit gaano man kaliwanag o kadilim pa
Humantong man sa puntong damdami’y masaktan na
Tatanawin parin tatlong taon piniling mahalin ka kahit magisa
Kahit mga tao sa paligid kuwestyunin kung bakit ikaw pa
Mananatiling ang sagot ay ikaw dahil mahal na mahal kita.
Maglalakbay parin kahit hangganan natin ay iisa, kahit ang kapiling mo ay siya.

-Eldest of Eleven

Just like pressed flowers
These fleeting moments
Maybe dried and shattered,
Shall later be remembered.
..
🌼

Pondering through my irreparable past, I saw how I fell into a deep trap. I thought I wouldn’t make it back up. The memories I kept suddenly got tossed back and forth and was left shattered. A thick wall fell in my chest, and tears fell like a flood. Then, you called me and I heard a sweet voice. You told me things I wish I had heard before. You asked me questions no one even dared try. You patiently listened to my endless stories I kept hidden for years. In my span of despair, you chose to be there. Like a torch you light up my dark night.
..

Hey, ocean.
The sound of your waves
When it sprints back and forth
Even if it’s almost dawn
You kept me awake
And wanting you for more
Your salty air left me in deep trouble
When it hastens to the shore
I love you even more
But as I dive into your waters
Beneath the sand I stepped on
Your shiny pearl I couldn’t even grab on.
The longer I explore you
The deeper I fell on you
Can I ever hold you?
Or forever I’ll drown knowing I can’t have you.

-Eldest of Eleven

Echo
When silence is deafening
My blues drowning
Your voice keeps repeating
I hear you echoing
Like a music there’s no stopping
It keeps me holding
It keeps me hoping
It keeps me waiting
It keeps me loving.

Sometimes I would just look around,
Hoping I would find a thing or two
Little things that would remind me of you
How in a world of red hearts
I found a green heart in you
I rummaged through my letters
Our endless conversations
Sometimes from the lyrics of the songs
Your cute Instagram stories
Your funny Facebook posts
Or your hilarious Tiktok videos
Most of the time, it is your smiles
Your laughs, your eyes, or your dimples
I don’t know where to put these anymore
It radiates energy, overflowing through my body.
But until you see me too,
It will stay only a bottled memories.

-Eldest of Eleven

September bliss 💚
..

Three or thirty
In bits or entirety
If one day or never
I'll keep this memory, hereafter.

-Eldest of Eleven

Mananatiling kalmado
Gaano man kataas ang alon
...
📸🦋

Sorry na..

Ako na magsosorry para sa mga taong hindi ka naintindihan.

Sorry sa mga bagay na narinig mo na hindi maganda.

Sorry sa mga salitang pumasok sa tenga at isip na nagbigay sakit at luha.

Sorry para sa mga taong nanakit sayo at nagiwan ng hindi magandang alaala.

Sorry para sa mga taong nangiwan nalang.

Mahigpit na yakap para sayo,
Sa mga panahong nanatili ka sa isang sulok na magisa habang nagiisip kung mali ba.

Mahigpit na yakap 💚

-Eldest of Eleven

Dear God,

No matter how hard life is or how I have been hurt yesterday, I will always have one reason to go on now.
It's love.

-Eldest of Eleven

Hangganan

Sumulpot na di namalayan
Nahulog ng di inaasahan
Umasa man at masaktan
Di titigil mahalin kailanman.

Maghihintay, di susuko..
Hangganan.

-Eldest of Eleven

Headed your way 🏃‍♀️

Graduated
Working for good
I started writing on a blank word
Thinking creatively not to worry
These burdens can be beautiful
Because God is bigger and faithful.

Corner.

Eldest of Eleven is now on WhatsApp.

No path is certain, but one thing is for sure...
He has a great plan ahead of you 🙌

📸 Christina Intia

If you have faith in God, you can move mountains.
You only need to believe.

-MCDI

Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry.”

James 1:19 (NIV)

❤

Wherever life leads you, trust God no matter what.

It's holiday season and everything seems under the "new normal," but I believe God just showed what else He can do in our lives despite the things we've been through this year. What has happened and still happening now just made a great impact in our life and the life next us. But God continuously showed how He loved the world and everything in it. Maybe, a lot of people won't agree with me because they've been hit hard, but I can say that the Lord our God is moving mightily in our personal lives and the world as a whole.

There may be people suffering now because of sickness, poverty, depression, economic crisis, and more. But we can still be grateful this season. We can remember how faithful God has been to us from the beginning of this year until today. We can be thankful that despite the pandemic, our families are doing well, we still have a job, and we can rejoice because of His goodness. We can be thankful to God for protecting us everyday.

I just realized that 'difficulty' doesn't mean an end, but rather a chance. A chance to see what God really intends in our life. We can stop and think, "Wait! What's happening? Did I miss something again?" When things are difficult, we don't just stop breathing, right? It's not something we want to happen. That is why I believe its important to acknowledge the Lord our God in every area of our life and be grateful at all times.

Thank Him for what has happened and what didn't.

Thank Him that He is in control.

Thank Him that He is bigger than anything raging in our minds.

Thank Him that He is our confident when we worries at the depth of night.

Thank God its Christmas!

Because I believe He deserves everything from us this season!

Therefore, this is my prayer for you:
Psalms 70:4
May all who come to God be glad and joyful. May all who are thankful for their salvation always say, "How great is God!"

Whatever There Is.

I hope you will never give up!
I prayed to God to sustain you, give you strength and comfort you for whatever is bothering you, for whatever is broken, for whatever is painful, for whatever is hard to handle, for whatever seems blurred, for whatever is uncertain, and for whatever there is.
I prayed for love instead of hate, faith instead of fear, and hope instead of giving up.

I dont know a bit of whats inside you, nor will I ever understand whats going on. What I know is that, you have someone you can always rely on. The one who can turn your battles into victories!
I hope and I pray that you will hold on to God. Don't let the burden take away the best in you. God loves you so much, and He will never let anything bad happen to you.

Hugs and kisses,
-MCDI

Arise.

Rotten faith, can you still hold on?
Something behind your smiles is not right.
Is it your past?
Worried about how dark?
Does it still linger?
What are you going to do?
Go back or hold on to a new you?
Oh No! Rotten faith, arise!
Coz' I want to hold on.

-MCDI

Hungry.

Nothing compares to any food quite palatable.

Always wanting for more.

Literally, hungry.

-MCDI

Riches

It's not monetary
It's not material things
It's not bank accounts
Or your wallet
Coz' your not even holding it
Maybe,
If you accept Him
Then, you have it.

-MCDI

Everything that we do should serve His purpose.

Many times in our lives we do not see the real meaning of how we should act and do. We do things for the sake of doing it or just to comply with what we are expected to. But then we should always be reminded to do things out of love for God.

For we know that what we do for God will signify how we truly follow Him.

Make an effort to honor Him in everything you do.
-MCDI

This is my takeaways 🙂

I dont know anything about your battles everyday.

But I hope and pray that you will never stop!

Never stop believing.
Never stop walking.
Never stop holding.
Never stop loving.
And never stop fighting.

Coz' whatever it is, Someone is there believing in you, walking with you, holding you, loving you, and fighting for you.

💙💙💙

-MCDI

Sharp.

"It was sharp but simple. Dilapidated yet beautiful.."

These are words I get to meet every time I read your stories.

Every time I look at Your masterpiece.

Every time I heard testimonies of how You have been so good and faithful.

Its so fascinating I have to go at it again, go look at it again, and go listen at it again.

Things I never thought would visit my mind. Things I never thought my eyes will see.

Things I never thought my ears would hear.

I always knew in my heart, it is You at the beginning and will still be You in the end.

Indeed, You are amazing!

-MCDI

Impatient Love.

Wanting to meet you gets me frustrated every time.

Isn't it time yet?

Longing to see you makes everything look painful.

Why can't I?

Is it too much?

The sun comes and go.

Will you still be there?

See me, Love.

Because loving you from far behind is torture.

Already.

-MCDI

🥺🤦‍♀️

"Whatever is the matter of our joy, God must be acknowledged as the author of it."
- Matthew Henry

"Things that are seen don't last forever, but things that are not seen are eternal. That's why we keep our minds on the things that cannot be seen."
2 Corinthians 4:18 (CEV)

Distance.

We have been distant for quite awhile.
We thought so much of those things we missed.
But distance is that which our hearts allows things to be.

Let it be.

-MCDI

Dear God,

I wanted to thank you for being a fan of this person. You know her very well than I know her as a mentor and a good friend.

"Do you remember the time we first met?"

This is one question I still kept thinking the exact moment I first met her God.
I'm being sentimental, I know. But yeah, I still remember.

I'm always glad knowing I have her around. Please know that I'm very much thankful to you God for blessing me such a wonderful person as herself. I thank you God and her for being such a strong wall that I can always lean on. Thank you God for her, being my mentor, my leader and a good friend.

To her.

Thank you for always honoring God in such a way people like me will benefit. I always pray to our God for your protection wherever you go as you honor him through reaching our students in campuses around the city, strength to continue doing what you do and more passion to know him and continously walk with him no matter what. I dont know anything at all about you, maybe just a few of what's inside you, but I always believe God for great things for you as well. I always pray to God to continously bless and mightily use you as you honor him. Thank God for you, for always standing in every and any of my prayers.

I hope that every desire you have inside your heart, God will honor them one-by-one. That every prayers, even concerns, He will honor them. That every answers to your prayers, you will have them one-by-one in his perfect time. Thank you! This is my way of appreciating you for being beside me all throughout my journey.

So God,

I lift up to you the life of this wonderful person. I hope we can bond more soon enough to call it "Finally!" I don't know if she can ever remember those times we talked so long, we wanted to do things beyond the facilities of our Church or more likely going out of or so, because I'd like to keep someone like her until we get home one day.

Just thank you, God!

-MCDI

God's plan is way higher than ours.

The merest hint of your beauty.
It's not above or below but inside.
Tears.
A river beneath your eyes.
Flowing and screaming deep within.
Waiting to burst any moment of time.
When flowed, pain release.
Feelings emptied.
But will keep flowing til' a mountain is watered.

-MCDI