Stepping Stones Studio

9 years ago today my life changed. I was confronted with the reality that I am a father to a child and no longer the child of a parent. My whole life broke into pieces, then it reshaped around Aidan. I remember when he fit in my hand and wrist now he is way to big for that. Each year that passes I am shown a different portion of myself and my mortality. This last year he has taught me so much, one of the lessons I have learned from him is unconditional love another is perseverance. He has shown me through his actions and how his light changes anyone he comes in contact with. He also has stretched me in ways I never thought would happen. Every morning that I wake up to see his face I am remember of my Why and how I want to be an individual and not just another carbon copy. My son changed my life and does with each day that passes.

Happy birthday son I love you so much and watching you grow is the best thing to ever happen to me.

7 years, we’ve summited mountains, traveled up and down the west coast, learned the rhyme and reason of each other, camping trips, family vacations, learned each others pace in each season I can say my love has grown. It hasn’t been pretty and pink love and I truly do appreciate it. Thank you for being you each day, and being the best step mom you can be with each day. Happy seven year anniversary I love you.

Today marks 10 years since my dads passing, I remember that morning like it was yesterday. Ten years or self discovery and many questions for my passed father. 8 years of raising my own son and wondering how do I answer the question that I never got to ask my dad? How do I teach my son to be a better man than us both? How do I leave my son not wondering where he stands in this world as well as my own eyes. Grief never gets smaller, the vessel that carries it only grows. I can’t believe a decade has passed, dad honestly miss you and wish we could chat while I have this mindset not the one of my 20’s. I promise I’ll do better for Aidan because of what you and my mother have both taught me. Love you dad, rest in peace.

I guess I’m 30
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As I sit, and reflect on the last 30 years of my life, the ability to look at it with appreciation. I’ve had so much happen that’s given me the ability to form who I am today. I am excited to be where I am at in life and all who have taught me, dealt with me, loved me, pushed me to better and allowed me to form with each day. To those who are close to me I truly love and appreciate you thanks for being a part of my life. I wouldn’t be here without you.

Thank you to the educators posted with the post my career and knowledge would not be where it is without your guidance and lessons.