Tman's Journey ADHD

R.S.D
Rejection sentativity Dysphoria. This hits hard he backlash way to aggressively and got in trouble over the words he used. I don't condone him saying what he said but to know his back story of father not being there and feeling like you are not even good enough for a parent to reject you it all goes hand and hand.
But with prayer we will walk through this storm and pray he learns to walk in peace and not anger

One the hardest things I've ever had o do was have him put in the hospital over suicidal tendency and actions. R.S.D ( Rejection Sensitive dysphoria)Yes we all have had to deal with rejection in one format or another. But for him sense his other half didn't stay in the picture it hit him alot worse. On top he was told you look homeless and your hair is ratty. His impulse control was thrown way out of control he cursed in an email,wished death on the person an was all out ugly. (I do not excuse this behavior,as he did have to recieve punishment and be accountable)
But unfortunately he took some other actions in his own hands and he took a knife and cut it himself and before it went any further he let it be known he rather have no belts around him as he had been choking himself.
To feel so helpless that I can't make it all right for him is an understatement. But through God and dear loved ones prayers we try and maintain.

Well our boy is home but we still have some battles. Found out he was crushing on a girl and she turned him down. No biggie right? Nope she supposedly told your nephew he looked homeless and that he should cut his hair ( which he did unfortunately) and then he replied back some very unkind words to the point I wish you die! Now her parents are pressing charges for harassment. Now I'm not taking up for what he said but damn. I tried to step infront of this way before it got this far. Telling counselors how his additude had changed and no matter how well he did in something he do something later to mess it up. All over a girl!!! He would just keep saying he don't know why he was depressed,or I don't know why I lash out,and etc. Father God please take the wheel I'm not sure how much more I can bare trying to maneuver and help guide him to be where he needs to be. The baby has more therapist then LeBron James has accounts. Just keep us in your prayers.
And ladies and gentlemen just beware of something called R.S.D (ADHD can make some people overly emotional and sensitive to criticism. ... This is sometimes called rejection sensitive dysphoria RSD)
Now its not an excuse for his actions but it shows his impulse control is still very weak. He didn't even consider what he had wrote. And before all this took place I talked with his counselors,even tried to get a M.R.I which I was told it wasn't needed just upped his night time medication.
Feelin absolutely helpless to your own child is not a feeling I would wish on anyone. But I'm trying my absolute best to advocate for him. Just praying for the Lord strength and guidance.
In Jesus name Amen

Hey do you have time to help me figure this out and unwind. I have so much that goes on in my mind. Thou at times it makes me cry. I battle each and everyday to what I do how I talk and what I say. Sit down with me and see through my eyes. Can you see the darkness have you heard me cry. Try and hug me I bet you can't hold me long. My heart beats so hard with every beat you can feel me tremble. You ask does that make me weak? And I look at you like I'm lost because I'm lost to describe how that question makes me feel. How I over think the smallest things that now you see me different now I have to lie ....oh my goodness I hate this feel why God Why .....5,4,3,2,1 let me pull back because you don't know how that questioned just made me feel you have no idea what to me is fake or real. You don't know how I cry hating myself each day or how I feel because I think it's my fault my father went away. I have all this and more at this moment in my head. And I forgot everything you just said.
So know when I ramble or get mad it's not really you and it's not really me but it's my way of figure out my chaos within my A.D.H.D

I know we all have days and nights we wish we could just fix it for our babies. We pray endlessly with hurt hearts and tears in our eyes. But know you are doing all you can for your little one and with our faith and strength our babies will make it through all their trials and tribulations. Always remember they are able and capable.

What truly hurts when people thinks it's OK to say backass things like... I couldn't ever imagine going through all the things you had to for your child it would have killed me. 😕 So you wouldn't do everything possible for your kid who learns differently and try to help them succeed?

We are never ready for the unknown. If anyone would have asked me 12 years ago do you believe in ADHD my answer would have been no. It had to come in my home with the prettiest eyes that where so confused with impulse control,sensory issues,anger depression and anxiety.Through all of this his empathy and love always showed.Amd that's a blessing. Some kids don't have that. Regret and disappointment so crippling that self harm was his way to deal with the pain. Pain of letting others down not knowing how to correct his mistakes and watching so many turn their backs on him after they said they understood.
Through our page I want others to know they are not alone. It's hard to watch your child battle themselves. Repeating to them day in and day out till it sticks. Not giving up. We know as parents they are able and capable it's just taking time.
There no judgment here. This page is to help not just others,but also my son. So he can look back on it one day and see how far he has come.
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