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It took some time to feel into what was being communicated by this beautiful being. She clearly presented herself and I initially placed her back in the garden after showing the children and enjoying a rare sighting. A couple of hours later she re appeared right in front of me.

I sat with her and she turned her head and gazed at me intently for some time ie. more than 20 mins.

To recieve the nod of approval from such a unique creature as a praying mantis is quite the gift.

When we feel unseen or unnoticed not in a resentful way, but in a way of, knowing that some things will never be fully seen or noticed. It is such a heart rush, a heart fill when an eye to eye, heart to heart acknowledgment arrives in the most divine way.

I just sat, taking in her acknowledgment, her spectacular wisdom and presence. So much gratitude.

Simplify, simplify, take what comes your way and with the devotion to patience, presence and peace, you will master it one way or the other. It will bloom or transform in front of your eyes, or it will disappear from your focus. Either way you will be the master.

Slow down to stillness, to presence, this is where the magic is. From this place you can chuckle about the unimportant that we make all too important.

From this place there is a knowing, of a clear path forward. Even if it’s not fully conscious.

Find the moments, they will not always find themselves and when they do, take them and revisit as required.

Elegance, sophistication, the power of less is more, this creature exudes these traits.

Her other - worldliness, her mystic and wisdom that has been generated is unfathomable. An all seeing, all knowing creature, showing us that we too, have the ability to tap into these realms and this level of awareness and intuition, even just momentarily, you are safe to believe it when you see it, know it etc.

What a blessing and may you share in her wonder 💖

Rowena xo

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May your energy return to places it’s been missing lately.

May you find ways to interpret your energy and where to step forward and where to step back.

Not for where you were but for where you are.

May you come to accept not where you want to be but where you genuinely are.

May you feel, know, see and trust, against all odds, what it’s going to take, to allow this to take place.

When you feel density, know you’ve got what it takes to meet it, work with it and transmute it.

When you feel the lightening, the sweet relief, know you have served your energy well.

You are the alchemist, the energy worker of your own soul and resonance.

It’s an inner job, the only job we must always stay loyal to.

Rowena xo

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For every unpleasant experience, may there be many more pleasant, life giving ones that fill you up in all the right ways. If this is not the case, may you open yourself to opportunities, interactions and experiences that allow for this.

Some seeds we plant can lay dormant for a long time before you finally see the result.

Don’t lose hope.

Rowena xo

~ Conversations with the sky ~

Sky energy is a culmination of the energy of the earth and the field around it, the weather patterns and components, the inhabitants of the sky and the energy he holds in his own right and in my experience is very protective and providing.

Sometimes it has to come apart first to finally come together. When you are in the midst of this know that your higher self is in the procuring stage. How is all of this going to land and fit in? What elements are yet to be retrieved to bring this process to fruition, and how will this play out. Step by step, this process is divinely crafted, you will not be disappointed by the simplicity and ease of this.

Respect the time something takes to brew or cook, as you would in the kitchen.

Change has its purpose, it’s timing, even if it’s not obvious, you can rest assured it is practical, intelligent and geared for your survival.

Survival is not always the bare minimum, it is the surviving of the negative spiralling of the mind. It’s surviving what you didn’t think you could and gaining the benefits of this, never to be the same again. It’s the surviving the conditions, the challenges, the changes experienced just living life and stepping up to those challenges even if it feels like you are doing mediocre, you are surviving it. You have the intellect, the power and abilities to survive the many obstacles and changes that lay ahead. You too will change tact in a way that may seem odd now but will make plenty of sense when the time comes. Because you are that wise and nimble and have more within you than you seem to understand.

Care for yourself like the survivor you are. Feel the pride and the joy of living a life well accomplished.

The warm loving embrace of father sky is ever present, ever nurturing, ever wise as you are.

Rowena xo

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“Nobody has ever measured, not even poets, how much the heart can hold.”

― Zelda Fitzgerald

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To know the language of our own heart and have a connection that is clear and unobstructed is foreign for some and I can understand why. Because we are only as able as our best role model and if this hasn’t t been modelled to us in some way, our relationship to this can seem foreign. With willingness and an open mind we do get there.

As a neurodivergent woman, it is my most natural state to experience life directly from the heart. I haven’t always felt safe to do this however, like many souls I can feel, allow the ego to lead, avoidance out of fear of vulnerability or a ‘chip on ones shoulder’ being the dominant force that guides and gives us our experience of life.

We can weave in and out of all of these things of course, as all of them have their place and role in being human. It’s when we are able to differentiate between each experience and we are having conscious connections via the heart, that there is a clarity and knowing that this is ‘it’. We don’t need anything outside of ourselves to be anything other than what they are in that moment. This is the way it is meant to be you see, this is the point at which our mind surrenders in that knowing, that there is a deep understanding and an honouring of the mystery within it all.

While it may feel that the world we live in is not compatible with this, that is exactly where heart medicine is required. This only changes when we change. The results will be seen from within you. Not the other way around.

My books are open for heart opening energy medicine sessions for 2024.

Rowena xo

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I find it interesting how our energy systems fluctuate in a similar way that the weather patterns fluctuate. There is a syncing that occurs within the collective energy field, within the planet.

I’ve been feeling drained and grumpy and then energised with minimal sleep within the space of a couple of days. How about you?

When I reflect on the weather and the experience of the earth, it’s not so different to mine, releasing, purging, detoxing, making my space.

This time of year, whether we are on holiday or working there is an opening up of energy, a space for this to transpire. A quiet, a pause of sorts, when actually there is much configuring on every level.

It’s a time to acknowledge our connection to the earth and to each other and this experience we are going through together.

It is a time to be enjoyed, like any moment is, a time to observe and feel, reflect, percolate and listen to that intuitive voice as to what is required. It could be odd practical things, even if it’s simply rest.

Rowena xo

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If you are noticing the way your system contracts towards the demands we place on our selves, that the craziness is just that - crazy.

If you can almost hear your system almost begging you to slow down but calling you all at the same time.

Pull yourself away if you have to, even for an hour, from what you know is not serving or even just too loud to hear what you truly need to hear.

Don’t underestimate what we do that is our foundation, our bearings. It doesn’t need to be difficult, complicated or out of reach.

Being with how it is and how we feel, staring it in face, seeing it knowing it and not denying it.

Giving is receiving in so many ways, watch for the balance. Observe it, reflect on it, thank it.

Sending you warmth and love,

Rowena xo

~ Spring energy reading ~

The process of renewal works in stages that is unique for all but what often happens is a complete rebirth, a breaking down of the old and the regrowth emerges. As we approach the closing of spring we are well and truly emerging from this process. It is not always a conscious process and the thing with renewal is that it is new, we cannot expect the old. It is a transitioning into a new version of self that requires different approaches. We don’t usually notice what’s changed until we take the time to look back & reflect. No need to over think it, allow, allow, allow, welcome, welcome, welcome. It will take time to integrate yet.

Feeling surreal, awakening moments, synchronicities - important to note that we are in the drivers seat of all of these experiences, it is not happening to us. Relish in the lightness of it. The connection to self is opening in big and beautiful ways, enjoy it. We are our own hero’s and loves of our lives. It’s what we are here for. It’s with others that brings us back to ourselves.

The sense or experience that false personas or pretences are being removed and we can experience people in a more vulnerable, real manner. We can feel them and understand them without needing to talk. You get the information you need more adequately from just being in their presence. You may have had the sense that talking is too slow or inconvenient a form of communication. The time it takes to put forward the quality of information that is required in that moment deems it inadequate. Or perhaps a lack of desire to talk much. Give this space as other senses are coming forward. Some of this is being instigated or initiated by events occurring but really these events are showing us the ‘then and now’ so to speak.

It may feel strange and emotive, like you can connect to a stranger or someone you’ve had little interaction with in a much deeper way. We want the human experience to change and when it does it can feel odd & destabilising. Or you may be totally unconscious to it and that’s okay. Timing is everything.

So interesting how the rise of the use of systems such as blue tooth, for personal use as well an important technology for some medical devices etc. This is mimicking what is opening up in our collective consciousness - we are sharing ‘data’ amongst each other in a very different way, a way that goes beyond the daily communication that takes place. We are exchanging information this way with each other as we have always done but in a much more prominent manner. It’s not the way we imagine telepathy to be, it’s in a very non invasive, empathic, high vibrational manner.

What comes to you when I speak of these things? Is it completely foreign or is there something lingering below the surface that resonates? Or is it very clear to you?

Watch the subtleties of how stimulants such as sugar, caffeine and alcohol make us feel. Not to shame ourselves but to feel into how the body responds and processes it, there is information there to be understood about ourselves and how our unique vessels operate.

Feeling at capacity with life but sensing a space for something completely new to come in, a creative energy, direction etc. in some ways space will need to be created and in a way it in itself will create more space and more energy to fulfil itself. Be aware, intentional to usher this through.

Go easy, allow the deep sleeps to take you, ease the fatigue with gentle life bringing practices, soul soothing music, gratitude practices, time in the sunshine or anything that replenishes.

In challenging moments, place one hand on the solar plexus and the other on the heart and breathe, soft, steady, intentional breaths.

We’re doing this.

Rowena xo

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In those moments of boredom, frustration, apathy etc. there is an space that exists, to allow the presence of the moment to open up to feel the sacredness, the wonder of this reality - as it is. To surrender a little deeper to the problems that present themselves to us and the limited dimension of them, to receive the answers that come from a completely different space. Not of the mind but of a source, a knowing that is so clear and simple, that doesn’t require analysis, it just is.

To be in the field of creation, of the great love that weaves through our universe, the meaning that exists in every experience, every encounter, every moment. It’s ours to immerse ourselves in and out of at our own will.

I’ve been thinking a lot about grace and I’ve come to know that it’s a kind of power we all hold. It resides within our soul, within our being, an energy that has the ability to hold us through everything we don’t think we can or want to do or feel. So powerful we can shift the energy of one person, situation, one room, community, planet etc.

It is not for the special people, the ones who we hold to this standard, grace is for all of us. There are so many expressions of grace, sometimes it will be choosing to smile, sometimes choosing to walk away. To be grateful, to be wise. To be kind to ourselves, to encourage ourselves to be in this experience and not to allow it to be lost on us through the confines of the mind, rather than the expansiveness of our awareness.

Rowena xo

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When you understand that each of us has a very unique and individual purpose and experience as humans, a path to walk that has its own meaning beyond our knowing, the need to judge or worry fades.

What rises up is the ability to respect, honour, support, trust and sometimes simply keeping to our own.

A higher perspective
simplicity breeds wisdom
Support allows growth and healing
Trust provides peace

Rowena xo

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~ Ritual ~

When a loved one dies, or a significant person that has impacted your life in some way dies, even if you haven’t known them in person or been close to them, a connection is a connection.

There is a process that occurs when a connection is altered, especially if it is sudden, shock is such an underestimated experience, emotionally and psychologically.

There is much that can be done to support ourselves and others through this time and many traditions and ceremonies that take place.

It’s a very personal, soul connection that is altered when one passes. One that often speaks loudly and often with a different frequency of authenticity once they are gone.
They are never fully gone of course, however the way we’ve known them in this life is completely altered.

There is an exchange that has taken place, a role that was played, even if it wasn’t all pleasant or had its moments. This is sacred, this is meaningful and not by chance.

There is a deep appreciation and honouring of that souls life, of what was exchanged between you. It is very real and the moment we acknowledge this for the truth of it, we assist the processing that is occurring. The emotional, physical, energetic. We honour ourselves and we honour our loved one. The tough it out mentality or numb ourselves out approach is understandable yet so unnecessary. Many of us have young people and others around us watching us as role models, do we want this cycle of swallow it down and keep pushing to continue? Or are we ready to allow softness into our lives, where every living being benefits? It is simple effective and doesn’t cost anything to tune into our heart, our expression and our innermost needs. It won’t bring that person or animal back but it will allow a connection within yourself, that has the ability to transmute and transform suffering.

There are many ways we can honour a special being through ritual. Journaling, poetry, creating art, planting a tree or doing or taking part in something in honour of that person and honouring their wishes here on earth.

One I used recently was sinking into a warm bath full of magnesium salts and essential oils - caring for my vessel. Placing my hands together in prayer I said thank you to that person. This is a heart led, intuitive practice. It unfolds as you allow it and deepens as you surrender to the experience without judgement or expectation. I continue to say thank you using their name and allowing expressions of gratitude to rise up. It’s in the repetition that allows us to go deeper and drop into the heart. You keep going as long or as short as you need. Allow the tears to fall as needed. Allow the feelings of deep gratitude and appreciation and even joy and wonder. See what unfolds.

Sending love,

Rowena xo

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It’s been 10 years since I was attuned to and certified as a Reiki practitioner. It’s a beautiful milestone to reflect upon in the knowing and feeling of what has occurred in that space of time with this modality as my ally.

It’s not to be underestimated when we embark on a journey, we have what it takes, we always do however it’s what we bring into our lives, practices, values, modalities, teachers etc. that bring the wisdom, the tools, knowledge and the awareness that guides us in a way that is more aligned, grounded and connected.

It has been one of many life changing experiences, my first steps into my conscious understanding of energy work and my own healing abilities as well as the reawakening of my intuition and its power.

I have since branched out and explored what was waiting in the wings beyond a given modality and to meet my own resonance, my own gifts. I work intuitively and there will be times when Reiki will come in strongly to be called on and other times I will be clearly guided within my own channels what is required. Nonetheless I feel strongly aligned with Reiki, it has been a huge blessing and teacher in my life.

It has absolutely not been a perfect blissful ride, there has been endless learning, challenges and many a rebirth within it all. All the while the support has been there, it’s not a cure-all but a faith bringer, an energy shifter and Reiki has a way of bringing things into re-focus in a way that you would least expect, was there all along but was not conscious to.

What also feels relevant to share is the shift that has taken place collectively in this last decade. There is a distinct sense of before and after almost at the halfway point of the last decade. There are lots of ways of looking at this but there is a feeling of the a more simple time when I recall the beginnings of my journey with Reiki. There is no coincidence and I’m so grateful for that, to have lived in that time and experienced the change that has and continues to take place. As well as all the experiences that have opened up since then as a result.

What I see so clearly about Reiki is it has a self guided element to it, it will go where it is required and do what is needed beyond what my mind is able to fully comprehend. I feel the simplicity of it, I trust the power of it and have felt the healing that occurs when it is called on. It weaves its way through time and space, with its own intelligence, knowing what is divinely appropriate. It is gentle beyond the softest touch, while providing the most powerful transformations.

To all that I have had the joy and honour of serving, to the experiences that have shown me the luminous, limitless nature of Reiki, I say thank you 🙏

Rowena xo

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Rest brings renewal
Rest holds the wisdom
Rest is a revealer
A clarifier
A simplifier
Rest is the opposite of what we are conditioned to
Rest is energy work
Rest is not the enemy but the ally
It is the missing link when we push
When you body asks for rest,
Trust it

Rowena xo

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When we open the doors within ourselves, we begin to understand what comes before us in a more connected and grounded way. What we judged or feared was simply misinterpreted. New and creative ways to relate to and to navigate our challenges will come to light.

We close those door for lots of reasons, or avoid opening them out of fear of where they will lead, when in fact the softening and clarity of this experience occurs through this channel.

In your moments of joy, no matter how small, close your eyes, allow this energy to walk you through those doors, down those avenues within, deep emotion is your guide. Expect awareness’s, tears, feelings and sentiments re-emerging from what feels like the past.

There will be experiences that will activate us, that will lead us astray or will open ourselves up. Stay with the emotion, it leads us, walks us through the doors. Stay with it, hold it and don’t be distracted by it. This is a heart led experience, not one of what the brain has to say about it.

There is a direct link between what we experience in our waking life and what our inner self is communicating. It not easy, but it Is beautiful and it is worth it.

Even if you don’t create art, you are a creative soul, don’t forget that, it is part of your being, it’s the mind that tells us otherwise. Your existence is the sweetest most precious creation.

Rowena xo

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It’s not for the feint hearted to see a loved one through alzheimers. It’s as much a life altering experience to see one through alzheimers as it is an honour, a gift that needs to be understood a lot deeper, to be allowed.

It is an experience of unconditional love, the expectations we had of that person, all that we knew, starts to disappear, the process of saying goodbye begins, leaving us with one that is more vulnerable, more distant, yet with a space where we can love this person a little closer in a way that wasn’t possible before, if we can just trust in this, before they finally leave their body for good.

It’s a transition for one and an initiation for the other. A preparation for what is to come. It’s a shattering of our reality that can be a large shock to process, a reminder that life is never occurring to satisfy us but rather a much greater plan and purpose.

Let go of stereotypes, allow space for the grief as it’s an undeniable part of the process, don’t judge, allow and make room for your own natural expression during this time. Go easy, care for yourself as much as your loved one. Remain open, that it will play out in its own way, on its own timeline. Trust it.

Sending so much love if this is where you have been, heading towards or currently experiencing.

Rowena xo

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We are here to experience life. We can judge it and create or perpetuate illusions about it. Try to control it. Or we can acknowledge just being here, in this form at this time and place and living through it, experiencing it, is a success.

It has its own plan beyond what we have to say and think about it. It is an intricately, individually, divinely crafted soul experience, not to be overlooked but to be trusted, realised and embodied.

If this sounds like a cop out, like it’s not enough, surely there is more, go deeper within.

Rowena xo

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Healing is not a one time experience. It is a naturally occurring and continual process that takes place moment to moment, day by day, season by season, stage by stage. When we provide ourselves with and meet our own needs.

Healing can be getting a restful sleep, a swim or a walk in nature, allowing ourselves to be heard and contributed to by another. It is a multidimensional experience of awareness, willingness and devotion. It is the most natural human experience.

Healing is not just for those with ‘issues’ or difficult pasts. Something to notice is the meaning and attachment we give to certain words and phrases, how we relate to them and respond tells a lot about our own journey and how comfortable we feel in our own skin.

May the new season offer you an opening to receive that which has alluded you, something new that you didn’t even know was missing.

I breathe it in,
I breathe it out,
I feel it,
I know it,
I receive it.

Rowena xo

~ Winter reflections ~

This winter has been a deep dive into anything that was due to be unpacked, uncovered, addressed, expressed, released and recreated.

When things are ready to be faced in a new way, it’s so easy to get caught up in the many stories our mind attaches to when in fact what we are due for is a complete reframe of things and to build our way forward with a completely new state of being.

At this point in time we are sensing the change of season is upon us yet there is more to go.

Recognising that nothing comes out of nowhere, everything has an energetic element, a seed that was sown, a journey of its own that must be honoured even when it doesn’t make sense or is a challenging path to walk.

When we put the blame on ourselves, we are forgetting the vastness of our existence, the greater plan of our soul and that our human experience is not and never has been to provide us with ease and comfort. It is our role to discover ease and grace within ourselves, a relationship with self that supports, protects and believes in ourselves and our energy. To become conscious to the humbling truth that we are, not at fault, how could we be?

For those that have come to understand ourselves in a new way, remember, this is our role to make the changes and show those around us our new way. It’s okay to live in the way you need to even if it surprises yourself, keep going, you are doing amazing.

Nothing is for no reason, nothing is by chance. You are how you are and the more we accept it, the easier it becomes.

Anything that is coming in newly, allow yourself to touch it, feel it, embrace it before you move forward. Feel what part of your prayers it is in answer to, if any.

The overall message is one of hope, of keeping the faith, allowing space regularly to unravel and recharge in alignment with your own specific needs.

We are a makeup of many aspects and within each one there is a need that requires our acceptance & devotion. Some are innately who we are and where we are at, some are ego oriented, some are 3 dimensional oriented, all are important and have their place and value.

Some things we have worked with this winter will feel complete, some have more to go, or simply need our acceptance. The feeling of unfinished business, can be a one of timing, readiness, learning to love ourselves and choosing something other than what we might want.

Sending a big warm, comforting embrace your way, together with an acknowledgment of everything you have encountered and moved through this season. It’s no small feat and I see you.

Rowena xo

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Relatable 🤷🏼‍♀️😍😆

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We won’t always see the full picture, how amazing we truly are, how well we are navigating and stepping into the constantly evolving role of being human. What we are truly worthy of is far greater than what the mind alone will allow us to know.

There are endless ways to be tripped up as there are to fulfil our potential, to step into energetic alignment and grace in all that we encounter.

It’s so easy to believe we are struggling or failing when really we are in deep process. This is where we either navigate and honour ourselves or continue in our cycle of limited awareness, we either gain or lose our power.

In my sessions I will guide you intuitively to what is been called for you to know and understand, an energetic match for what is underlying.

It is an opportunity for 75 mins of focus on you, creating greater awareness of what you are experiencing in life, gaining insight and expansiveness, coming back to yourself in a way that allows for much to shift, grow, rest and align.

A hands on healing has the ability to allow the energy body, which holds the memories of the past, to assimilate, move through and transform. Your energy body has what it needs within in it and with a gentle transmission of energy work, it moves through with its own divine intelligence, leaving more space and lightness.

I invite to you join me for a session at Prana house in Thornbury Vic, bookings via
https://www.rowenapakis.com/book.html

Rowena xo

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I am human
I am fallible many times over
Yet there is so much that I am worthy of
That isn’t recognised through a very limited view
I’m not what you think I should be
My journey is not yours to understand
Because you have your own
It’s nothing personal
It’s nothing to defend
Yet here we are intimately sharing this human experience
It’s our role to understand ourselves
And why we judge
Why we hide behind ego
The quicker we relinquish
How hard we are on ourselves
In the face of one another
In the face of ourselves
The sooner we come to understand
This intimacy we share
Through the truth of our being
Not the desire and expectation
But through the full human spectrum
Heart and mind
Hand in hand
Vulnerability and willingness
Openly viewing our wounds
What we’ve viewed as flaws
Bringing them to the surface
Welcoming them
Thanking them
For making us human

Rowena xo

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An authentic conversation with another that is long overdue can reveal so much, especially when we have been living with our own assumptions & limiting beliefs. The medicine in meeting another in this way, the freedom in letting down one’s guard, the sharing & receiving between two hearts & minds. With an open heart and willingness to understand perhaps what is not the truth, but what is so for another. The re-jigging of the thought processes, the softening of the whole system as we see things as they are from another perspective, other than our own.

Rowena xo

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There is a sense of running on empty, filling the tank but it’s only enough to get part of the way. Tired, exhausted or feeling out of sorts but not seeing why. You may be doing the same as what you always do. See, comparing yourself to how you have been even a month ago is not the kind of support you need. The season is changing, the energy has shifted, our bodies & minds are in a different time & place. What we are processing energetically as well as what we are moving through in our personal lives is unique. We are living, breathing, evolving in a world that is in many ways is not a match even for our most basic needs.

What is being called for is simplicity. In the way we think and in the way we plan and carry out our lives. Catching yourself before you go to do that extra thing or allow a spiral of overthinking. Asking yourself, is it necessary, can it wait or be let go altogether?

Rest is not to be underestimated in its ability to provide you with much nourishment & healing. To help shift that odd aliment or allow the mind to calm the storm of the everyday.

Allowing ourselves to be human. Our brain has a plan for us and our all inclusive human form has its own plan of its own. Allowing our brain to merge with the all inclusive human form that we are. We are not just a brain & body we are a energetic & spiritual vessel. We are a mental & emotional & sensory processing system with its own needs as well as a soul that has its own place.

This might be self explanatory but it’s so important to acknowledge this when we wonder why we are run down, sick again or feeling off centre.

It can be overwhelming when we are in the habit of caring from ourselves from the logical brain. It can also be empowering when we work from this place of communicating intuitively with our system. We can make things work for ourselves rather than against. Often times we already know the things that need tweaking, understanding or accepting and we just need to make the changes. This is the cue to do so.

May you need support navigating this, in my sessions we work in re-aligning your energy, calling back your connection to self which holds your innate power & creative energy. In this there will be space for awareness that will hold a clearer way forward.

Bookings are open for 30 min intro sessions at Prana house in Thornbury this Saturday 20th May. Bookings can be made through the link below.

https://www.pranahouse.com.au/open-house

Rowena xo

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