WHOLE being WELL

Just found this labeled "Back then this was a good day Jan 2018"
My fatigue was so bad that I often could not move from my chair. I would budget my energy so tightly, and tie up all my motivations, dreams, and worth in what I could do with 1-2 useable hours a day.
I'm so glad I saved my own life, essentially with committed systemic detox. My useable hours versus immobilized hours are the inverse of what they used to be. Good days like today, all my hours are useable, and I've learned to integrate taking it easy with gratitude. I did slow yoga, ate a simple salad meal with spelt pita and dark chocolate dessert. I appreciated the clearer air and deep green shade of a tree. I'm home for the evening, going through files, and appreciating love.
I'm so grateful I have had all the help and support that I've had. I'm glad I'm here to tell you how much you matter. ❤

I'm feeling called to lead retreats that show people how to live with better air, to learn from experiencing healthy patterns, to understand more about themselves and life, in a joyful and supportive setting.

People will rest as much as they want, eat intuitively, and explore to their heart's desire. Wellness coaching will be included.

Where do I begin?

I have a gorgeous list of locations, and had an amazing semi trial run already. I still have much to experience and put together.

As a facet of being disabled and chronically ill for a long time my network is not at all what it would be otherwise. I want to do a couple at cost retreats in the first 8 months to gain more perspective before I officially launch the paid retreats.

So who is interested? Who do I reach out to?

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This article makes me think two things:
1. Avoid breathing in the v***r of cooking water or food. Breathed microplastics are dangerous (see additional link below).

2. This helps us understand potential behaviors of the smallest plastics, nanoplastics. I notice toxins in certain ways and have sensed plumes in steam for the past two years. I also notice other behaviors that may end up proven by science, such as settling in powders, dried herbs, and sealed containers.

https://www.livescience.com/health/boiling-tap-water-can-remove-nearly-90-percent-of-microplastics-new-study-finds

https://doi.org/10.1016/j.scitotenv.2022.154907

"If you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing"

Trends of Pristineness
This is an informal conversation to help stir awareness and consciousness about environmental illness and wellness, not to set anything in stone. There are exceptions to every trend. I didn’t get into product trends, because they’re more complicated. Comment anything else you can think of!

Off grid > On grid
Fewer Roads > road density on the map
No base > Military base
New build > old build
Diverse vegetation > clear cut area
5k population > 5 mil population
Small plane > giant plane
No people > crowds
Wood, metal, concrete builds > dry wall builds
No spraying > glyphosate or phos chek
Dry camping > RV park
Nature > Industry
Biodiversity > collapsed biome

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Mantra for the healing empath:

"As I ask for others not to suffer, I also ask for myself to not suffer."

Emotional healing food for thought of the day:

If it isn't helping your healing, or making you happy, it might be possible that you don't need it. 🤷🏼

What are your deeper needs? How would you honor those?

I was coaching a mold avoidance client yesterday, a person with environmental illness, and they had A TON of questions. And I had A TON of resources right at the top of my mind for every possible solution. I also infused tips for boundaries, communication, and emotional support along the way.

I am genuinely amazed and grateful for the amount we covered in that session, and how prepared I was to be of service. We discussed good options in campgrounds and forest areas, resources for more information, and overall healing strategies. That client came out of an hour session with not only 5 possible plans, but also 20 resources to save for research and future reference.

Not every session goes exactly that way. Sometimes it is about a more specific concern, or holding a valuable space for reflection.

Something I took from the session is that I have a lot of location experience. These are places I have studied since unmasking to outdoor biomes, to perceive both positive and negative health impacts that they may have. This is a tool that is incredibly useful when healing from an illness with environmental components.

The US states I traveled to while unmasked are: California, Oregon, Idaho, Nevada, Utah, Arizona, New Mexico, Texas, Arkansas, Mississippi, Alabama, Georgia, Florida, Tennessee, Oklahoma, and Colorado. And, my first mold toxin sabbaticals before unmasking were in 3 more states: North Carolina, Illinois, and a clear memory of driving through corn fields in Kentucky with my face swollen up with detox and my soul full of joy.

I have debated in the past couple of years if mold avoidance coaching is a healthy profession for me. It involves me continuing to be present with difficult topics that have impacted me personally.

However when I work with clients, I always feel more inspired and energized. It's only the bureaucracy, "coaching scene", and marketing that feel uninspiring at times.

In this particular session, I felt divine timing so strongly, just like when I was with my partner and his parents and came across a dolphin pod at sea. Sometimes the right moments just happen. As long as they are happening in my coaching practice, I feel completely affirmed that I am in the right place. 🐬✨🌻

Coaching and healing sessions are available Monday 1pm, 2pm, and 3pm, Tuesday 11 am and 2pm, and Thursday 11am and 12pm. (All times are in EST, and new slots may be offered on request.)

For those wondering where the focus of my practice is these days, it is on authenticity, deep solutions, and care.

💝 Authenticity means my authenticity as a guide and healer. For me that value signifies that I only share what I believe in, and I include the context needed for people to understand it with their own minds. I do not parrot the wisdom of others, or offer advice that I believe could go against your best interests. I am honest about my resources, and genuine in offering what I believe is most likely to help you in the deepest, most sustainable way.

💝 Deep solutions means that where we really want to be in life might not be the result of a single action, or time-stamped process. Healing, and evolution are usually the results of a deep integration of many turns, and points of coalescence. I offer guidance to help this integration become more accessible and knowable. I do not emphasis surface goals, or hamster wheel pathways. I support your journey with what you find the most empowering, true, and worthy of your life.

💝 Care is something I have had with me for a very long time, even longer than my conscious mind remembers. It centers me as a healer and guide. In supporting you to become closer to--or even completely acheive--what you want your life to be, I feel real gratitude and joy.

"... a life of service doesn’t only mean engaging in helpful outer activities. It also means engaging in a lot of inner work that moves one to becoming a psychologically and emotionally healthy person. When we are strong on the inside –– meaning healthy in our psyche and strong in our compassion, love and wisdom –– then we can be a person who others can rely on, the person who others feel safe with. We spend so much time in meditation and prayer, not to avoid others, but to be as stable and centered as possible so that others will be emotionally, psychologically, and physically safe in our presence."

-Cai Bennett

Love & You

It's okay to love a lot, and to be loved a lot! The belief that love is inherently limited is just one cultural understanding at a moment in time, which has nothing to do with you, or who you are.

It is actually okay for everyone to love you, hypothetically. You can have problems, and also be infinitely loved. You, too, can love infinite people who have problems.

Do you ever affirm for yourself that your friends can be imperfect and still real friends? That they can be completely flawed and still loveable?

Do you ever affirm for yourself that you can love someone without changing your boundaries in any way?

Do you ever affirm that there is no limit to who loves you or how much?

The dislike of a group whether it's a clique of three people, or a large group such as a profession, isn't needed. You don't need a frenemy, or frenemies.

It might help to realize that judgments, fears of isolation and scarcity, and personal hierarchy, are all completely made up within society. Across countries and cultures, there are many changes to this. Within a country, there are huge differences from place to place depending on community.

This is the big picture in terms of you and your happiness: The more love is limited, the more impact that has on personal health. The more love in a person's life decreases, the more their wellbeing gets blocked.

When the love limitation turns inward to restrict self love, what would naturally decrease? Authenticity, performance at work/play/studies, all forms of intimacy, and more.

Do you embrace that deep love of yourself is important? Do you know it is possible, as well as acceptable, as well as in flow with who you truly are?

Self love radiates outward. You aren't simple for loving yourself and sharing love. 💖

Feel free to share your issues with love, friendship, intimacy, and anything related to this post in the comments! I will listen respectfully and answer 💖

Support for fellow mold avoiders out there:

I wanted to share this list to help people with the tough CT times. All of these help me in a way that feels most direct, immediate and clear, hence, "hacks". I'm going to add photos to help illustrate them. Please add your own hacks to the list, and hopefully as a community, we can conquer this toxin!

CT Hacks

🍯 -Honey hair mask: To decontaminate hair, I use good quality honey (for example organic cream honey), and mix in sea salt, lemon juice and water. I leave in for at least 20 minutes, then wash out.

😁🌿 -Ayurvedic oil pulling: I found these single use packets online, which save me any loss from easily contaminated jars of coconut oil. The addition of the herb mix and mint esssntial oil has been incredible at stimulating detox.

🚨 -Red light: a simple red light, corresponding lamp clamp, and possible extension cord have worked wonders for me when I was completely wrecked. This helped address infection in the body that had overwhelmed my immune system.

🏞 -Plant oxygen: when I have really needed to get clear, I have breathed directly into plants and moss, either using breathwork, or some rythym of my own to get clearer air. Plant-rich and oxygen-rich biomes have been more supportive when there is high CT.

🍋 -Chopped lemons: These have been an incredible toxin sink for CT. They are also more economical than most air-cleaning products, compostable, and easy to remove when contaminated.

🍹-Flavored Seltzer: This might be the easiest way I have ever deconned my mouth, by gargling a gulp of lime spindrift. Clearly biodegradable, and easy to incorporate when camping or hiking.

💧-Iodine: One aspect of CT is halogen interactivity, if that's a word. When I supplement iodine sufficiently, I find that my CT pain and problems reduce.

🫘-Castor oil packs: Liver clean up in general has helped a lot of people with CT. Since this toxin really likes cloth and paper towels, as well as liquids, the key with castor oil packs for me these days is to make sure my supplies are not contaminated.

What hacks am I missing? What has helped you with CT, and what just doesn't work?

A little update for those following my personal path of healing from chronic Lyme and co-infections 🌌🌿❤️

I don’t think about Lyme disease anymore. Borrelia, Babesia, erlichia, Bartonella. I don’t think about bone pain, neurodegeneration, being bed bound or house bound, spirochetes, bacteria ruining my life.

My partner used the term “Lyme disease” in an email asking for a newer year rental car, and that’s when I realized I’ve achieved this milestone. I don’t think about Lyme disease. But I realized that was a good tactic, as indescribable “reactions” that I call allergies probably would not be as persuasive 😆

I do think about parasitic infections. I’m more unmasked to them than ever. The same with mold and toxins. In fact, I think of those three words as practically synonymous as they co-exist in the body. I believe that anti-parasitic scripts and supplements can be very helpful for some of us. I’ve read about this from Lisa Petrison, Bryan Rosner, Ana Harris. I’m open to reading and learning more paths to healing with and without attention to parasites.

I started “mold healing” in 2016 with the candida diet, yoga, meditation and exercise. I then began Lyme treatment and “healing from toxic mold” in 2017, leaving that toxic apartment and tossing most belongings. I repeated the moving and tossing a year and a half later and it barely made a dent. For three years I was treating Lyme with a truly incredible LLMD, super compassionate, knowledgeable, and attentive. But something was still getting worse and I felt truly desperate to heal.

Now after 32 odd months of following the Beginner’s Guide and experiences of other avoiders, I don’t think about Lyme. I feel more cognitively intact than I’ve ever been in my life. I’m excited for how this path will unfold as I keep detoxing the sequestered parts and deep layers, holistically healing. 💫

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Some things I've done recently:
1. Watched Moldy the Movie. Interviews include fellow avoiders who healed from severe treatment resistant illness. A mentor and founder of Paradigm Change, Lisa Petrison. Along with Julie Rehmeyer, author of A Science Writer's Odyssey into an Illness Science Doesn't Understand, which I just got ready to listen to on audible.
I really recommend Moldy to those who want a quick 1 hour cap on severe mold illness (which can set the stage of Lyme and much more). Even though it's created by the founder of Bulletproof, I didn't catch wind of a single ad or propaganda, and I sincerely felt positive intentions from the whole thing.
You can watch the film free here: moldy movie
https://moldymovie.com/movie/

2. Ridden a bicycle! It has a flat now after just two rides, but man it's been fun to be back on one. Special to find one too. Shopping tends to be a challenge of going into a environments that set back my healing.

3. Lots of energy healing. This needs its own post for sure. Earlier this year I was attuned in the second level of reiki, and it was a special experience to work with my second mentor that I've ever learned energy work from. It boosted me in a new way. I was challenged to emulate the founder of reiki and do self healings for 21 days. I ended up going many more days without counting, and I'm now in a place where I work without music or timers on myself to clear biofilms, and blockages. I've gone for over 4 hours at times and it's revelatory. This mentor often describes reiki as tapping into universal love, and I find that with much less effort than I used to apply, I infuse myself with the antidote to harm. The more I give myself love, the more harm becomes weaker and irrelevant.

4. More toxin avoidance. Damn this works. I have struggled a lot recently from a hybrid of toxin with infection. I can barely taste regular air or water. I'm told this is a part of the healing process, and I believe it because I overall don't feel that bad, and am nowhere near how I was in the more difficult times of my illness. So I focused on sleeping in my tent, cleaning my new shack, unfortunately throwing away cloth items that couldn't be cleaned, and getting away from everything on hikes. My version of hiking can be a little different at times. A couple days ago, I was hit by some triggering items and struggled to get up a hill. I sat in the branches of a tree, a shady rock, just resting and being in the rhythm of nature. I believe this can help physically healthy as well as sick people. Nature has infinite lessons about self acceptance, growth, patience, flexibility, boundaries and love. One of the biggest joys of avoidance has been to explain my love of spending time in nature, you know, what humans have done for 198,200 years pre industry.

5. Ozone Insufflations. Throughout healing, I've done complementary treatments on my own. Not always easy when you're sick. Some of my favorites have been castor oil packs (which I usually get in daily), and e***a protocols, which I use a lot less frequently. Ozone is my new jam. It feels promising to try some intravenous clinical treatment. As I have heard from a mentor in avoidance that those treatments really pushed along his healing and ended a lot of of contamination problems, allowing him to focus more purely on good enough locations.

6. Found Stillness. When I was exposed to a new toxin, it prompted me to move to a new location, away from the country where I've spent my whole life. It's not a place where people roam around doing but it is a beautiful place, with a lot of focus on conservation, and I've been able to integrate into a community again. My new friends have taught me a lot. For one thing, it's a privilege to be healthy enough to move around on my own. I know that because I used to be isolated for years because of disability. Now, I have the privilege to learn from a more diverse group of people. Particularly interesting to me is having healthy friends that aren't living in continual fear, blame, and crisis. For some of them that might be normal. In the chronically ill world as I've noticed, it's rare.

I've found this way of being a precious gift. For anyone whose life has led them to feel more or less safe, please don't hide that! There are people out there who need to know what that's like. For what I've gone through cognitively with neurotoxicity on top of isolation, being surrounded by the energy of other people has been really healing. Especially with the boundaries, respect, higher awareness, freedom, and love that I am now healthy enough to begin expressing.

I want to share a great article/podcast that explains the theory of why a deep and methodical detox can be the most (and sometimes only) effective treatment for Lyme. This can also apply for a variety of psychiatric and physical conditions when untested and unstudied toxins are present.

The basis of detoxing is personal experiments, so you keep perfecting for yourself what improves your health the most. Since practicing this for two years, I feel the healthiest cognitively that I have been in my whole life. It's a really special feeling.

Physically, there are still moments here and there where I had more energy and wellbeing as a child and young adult. But I have also woken up mornings and hiked 8 miles without even a water bottle, because I am that much more adapted to living on Earth, particularly in a healthy biome.

I feel really grateful to share this, questions welcome ✨

https://paradigmchange.me/wp/lyme/

Bryan Rosner

Is Lyme Disease An Environmental Illness? (And What’s Mold Got To Do With It?) | Paradigm Change Editor’s Note: Bryan Rosner publishes books on Lyme disease and related topics by doctors and other experts through his company BioMed Publishing, and also has written five books of his own on Lyme disease. The following article is an adaption of a recent podcast of his on the topic of healing fro...

how to heal (from toxic air) without being nomadic

not everyone is ready or able to move to stay in good air, but some combination of these things might help you detox:

🌸 you might need to move! If in town, to a new building with a high up unit. Or if you can, to a more pristine location.
🌼 sweat in a good biome. Exercise and/or layer up outside of the city, on top of a mountain, in a river, somewhere with good wind.
🌲 shower and change after you sweat. Wash bedding and clothes often. If you don't you could block your detox.
🌳 use an air purifier. Run it on high next to your bed all day, because the air you sleep in is important. Find the purifier that works best for you, don't get it used, and consider EMF's if you're sensitive.
🦋 store, donate, toss. If you're really committed, make sure you don't have contaminated things. Go as minimal as feels okay with you; this is often progressive.

most mind-blowing:
🌈🌊 pay attention to how you feel. Sometimes a place has toxic air, sometimes it's only toxic with increased pressure or the wind direction. Stay longer in places that feel good. Trust yourself when a place feels bad.

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One of the most comforting lessons in my chronic illness journey has been that treatment isn't 100% linear or easy or pain-free. Sometimes the grass is greener for a treatment choice we didn't make, and sometimes we really need to G**O. The best a person can do is self love, and self accept so that you can learn to tell the difference and forgive yourself when you don't.